Who are you?
Sit down and make yourself at home if
- You don’t feel pregnant yet (what’s pregnant supposed to feel like anyway?)
- You’ve read those pregnancy books & felt a failure for not experiencing symptom/feeling X at week Y
- You just know there’s more to you then a collection of organs, fantastic as those organs may be right now
- You have a sneaky suspicion that there’s more to this pregnancy & motherhood business than you previously imagined
- You feel like you’re about to sit an exam you haven’t studied for, then realized it’s a practical & you cant really study for those
- You feel like breaking the pregnancy rules
- Actually you feel like tearing up the rulebook
- You feel guilty about having these thoughts
- You’re not enjoying being pregnant the way you thought you would
What’s with the journeying?
[jur-nee-muhn] –noun, plural -men.
1. a person who has served an apprenticeship at a trade or handicraft and is certified to work at it assisting another person.
Years ago, people generally went to work, not to a gym, to work up a sweat. Your average craftsman started out as an apprentice where he learned and honed his craft. He then went on to become a journeyman, travelling from place to place working, learning, creating and sharing his gifts. In time he had the potential to be looked upon as a master craftsman, or even a guru.
Change genders, centuries and occupations and here I am. I still haven’t earned my guru stripes, and I promise I never will. In fact my gurus are my children. They teach me how I want to be. Someday soon. I’m gettin’ there.
I’d like us to explore things here, but not overthink them. It’s a visceral time, a liminal time, a transitional time for you. Lets enjoy the ride.
Sometimes things may not turn out the way you expected. But it is what it is. You’ll get something from the experience you maybe you didn’t know you needed.
I tend to talk about pregnancy as much as giving birth. You know there’s no need to focus on the birth from the minute your pregnancy is confirmed. In case you haven’t gathered by now, this is about the journey as much as the destination. Its not like your daily commute to work you know, its more like trekking in the Himalayas. You probably wont hit these trails too often over the course of your lifetime. Not to mention the fact that you can’t spend the whole 40 weeks entirely focused on one day. You’ve got to live in the present moment, kid. You and your kid.
The poet Seamus Heaney beautifully illustrated this in Postscript when he wrote
“You are at one with what is here and there and gone…
A hurry through which known and strange things pass…
And catch the heart off-guard and blow it open.”
Pregnancy will do that to you. Motherhood will do that to you. Your journey will do that to you. Every time.
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